Troubles...

What's freaking wrong these days?? Why are there more and more troubles??

You think you're the only that's suffering?? What do you mean by selfish?? It's like I didnt choose to volunteer everything, right?? and what i went, you went too. I really really dont know what's happening... You just dont seems to know that we've been giving in to you. I'm really speechless after reading that... You've changed. Totally.

Do you know how hurtful that hurts me after reading that?? And it totally sucks today. Why cant you freakingly answer?? First you told us to take the things and go. Second you complained to others that you're angry that we left you there. So may i just ask, WHAT DO YOU WANT??
You're really scary. One moment, you're laughing, and the next moment, you're showing attitude. Seriously... I've no idea what's going to happen in the future...

You never spared a thought for others. I really dont feel like talking to you for a couple of days. Cause I'm feeling injured, tired, incomplete, angry... I really want to ask you this, "So is everything my fault??"
I really dont know what I can say of you now. Am i your dog or what?? You call me and expect me to appear immediately?? For goodness sake, I've my own life. You made the decision yourself, nobody forced you to. Its my passion. If you were me, you'll understand the feeling of being betrayed. I really dont know.

I really hurt it just now. You were totally showing attitude to us. We asked you politely and you wont even acknowledge our presence. Just stone there and expect the whole world to beg you on our knees?? WHY??

First, Him. Now, You.
Why?? Why are the people that I really trust and love doing this to me??
What did I do to deserve all this??

When I'm quiet, you'll say I'm emoing. When I'm entertaining you all, you'll say I'm AA. Then what do you expect me to do?? I cant read your mind. If you don't say, I won't know. I... really dont want to say this. But you've really forced me to say this...
I've regretted everything now...

Now, you've made me lose all my trusts on you. I'll have second thoughts if I should share my secrets with you. I didnt want this to happen like that but you chose it. And I really hope that, this is enough. Just this 2, really important people in my life, whom after changing my life and destroying it completely after that, makes me feel empty. I'm like a crab without a shell. I lose trust now... I cant believe you actually think it that way. Since you really want that, I'll just give up and let you. Since you said this is my act of selfishness. He did ask for volunteers but no one volounteers. if you really want that job, why didnt you raise your hand?? And now, its my fault that you're not in. I really hate it now.

I really want to share all this and everything in my mind now. I want a pair of listening ears. A trusting pair. But who can I really trust on without getting hurt at the end?? I'm disappointed.