AH !

AHH ! Why am I so confused ?? I don't understand myself . AT ALL .
I tried to forget . Yes , it works . But not permanent . I just can't bring myself to a conclusion . WHY ? Why is it so hard to forget ? The feeling is back . The feeling that I never enjoyed ~

When I saw you , I felt my heart thumping . I was scared and I didn't know what to do . I turned and look at you . My heartbeat went faster . . . i didn't know what to do . As you look into my eyes , I got shocked ! The feeling was . . . Nice ? But I know I can't . He is not the one that can give me the secure , the love that i need . I turned away . I thought maybe it will only last only a while . But when we're stuck together , just the two of us , I became to worry . I don't know what to do . I can't look up . Just simply because I'm afraid I will look into your eyes . That fear that I never had . . .

When I accidentally hold your hand , I went blank ! I didn't realised that I did that , until the next day . How dumb I was . The feeling was nice but it will hurt . sigh :(