Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Last love letter...

Dear xx,

Thank you for letting me know you.
Thank you for the care, the love, the sweetness you gave me.
Thank you for entertaining me 24/7.
Thank you for cheering me up when I'm down.
Thank you for letting me know that I have to make a choice.
Thank you for giving me the secure that i need.
Thank you for protecting me from all dangers.
Thank you for not ignoring me.
Thank you for allowing me to love you.
Thank you for existing.

All this isn't enough.
You are my
ALL.
But when i slowly realize it, you're gone. like the wind...

There's something i really want to tell you and i really mean it.
but i guess, it's too late.
You won't see this and you won't feel this anymore.
I will still say this to you for the last time.
As I'm giving up now...

I LOVE YOU.


With love,
Xi Jia.

gave up.

i tried. but the outcome is ...

DISAPPOINTMENT.

why?? why is this happening?? maybe this time, i should really give up.
i should move on. i shouldn't stop here and waste time.

Monday, June 28, 2010

a letter which i wanted to give him.

p.s:

Do you know that I love you?
I probably already told you, but I'm going to keep saying it.
There is no lies in these words, not one bit.
Your smile keeps me alive, is one more reason to keep fighting.
I would give you my soul for comfort, even if it leaves me dark and cold
and when I hold you close,
I can feel your heart beat fast, and I think to myself...
I've found that 'someone' at last.


i wanted to give you this.
but it all ended even before i could give you.

sad.

nothing can cheer me up now... i really dont know what's wrong with me. i really decided to give up on him, yet... i just cant. feelings, memories, emotions. argh!!
seriously want back my hair :(
gosh, why am i stuck here?? if i can turn time back, i will turn it back to the time when i first know you. and i will grab all opportunities with you. i swear.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

last june holidays weekend...

Hate my hair now :(

yesterday went SANA. it was raining in the morning. screw up hair xx went there too early, so Mrs Lim allowed us to go 'adventure' at Sengkang CC. ha, got sweets from a store. Only me and Pris bought this cute sweet lollipop. Mine was a bear soccer, Pris was a bunny. haha, we didnt bear to eat it. well, too bad. when we went back to the basketball court, we had to go into the room for SANA already. so i had to 'kill' it. *sobs* hehe, go sugar rush and started highing over everything we saw xD
SANA was okay okay larh. quite interesting but also boring at times... saw the pictures of drug addicts, canings.... it was totally GROSS xx ohh!! saw Shirin, Whitee Monkey (Lee Jun Hao), Helga.... and friends from NPAP and ATC. whoots, received a beautiful headphone from Shirin. THANKS A LOT SHIRIN :D

The lunch wasnt that pleasant. Rice with chicken, vegetable and fishcake. The rice was way too dry, the chicken was hard. The vegetable and fishcake are quite nice. but the food was really cold... was really hungry, so ate it all :)
SANA test was okay. not that hard. but also not that easy. Gwen call me xiaozhabor xD
After SANA, we went back to Tampines. having dinner before going home. the journey back was pretty interesting. From sengkang to paya lebar to tampines. It was the first time we took the circle line. on the train, we were like little kids, glaring at the head of the train window, imagining us on a rollar coaster :)

Went Long John Silver's to eat. I always enjoy being with the girls. Laughed about stupid things, disturbing one another.... and this time, we targetted Nad :) FRIES~~
D.A.R.K.E.S.T. Just this word, we laughed and laughed for mins...
D = Dogs.
A = Ang mo kio.
R = Rambutan.
K = King Kong.
E = Elephant.
S = Sexy.
T = ???

They made me lick the knife with chili xD
After eating, we went toilet and wow. Saw this woman coming out from a kids cubicle. we are like "omg! haha!!" went ToyRUs :) we were like little kids... how i wished i was.
went home at around 7.30pm.

At night, we decided to go for Saturday's SANA Flag Day. yup, meet Pris and Elyana at Pasir Ris Interchange at 12.15. It was fun. Holding onto money bag and stickers. From a empty money bag to a heavy money bag. From a 3 full page full of stickers(150 stickers) to 14 stickers left. Standing in front of the MRT waiting for the arrival of each train, seeing the crowd coming out, asking, "Hi, do you want to donate to SANA?? Thank you :)" this sentence, was repeated thousands, million times. The feeling of people walking pass you, people smiling and rejecting, people who stop and donate, people who stop and glare at you... Well, it was my 1st time. and I'm sure, if there's a next time, I'll still participate it in :)

wanted to go Sakae for lunch. we only realised that there wasnt the tea time buffet we wanted after we went in. and it wasnt halal xx so we thought we cant just walk out of the restaurant like that. haha, me and Pris decided to get something :) a plate of sushi. well, at least we bought SOMETHING :)

After asking and asking, we stopped at 6.15pm. 6 HOURS!! :D went Tampines Mall. couldnt decide what to eat. Went Pizza Hut :) love that :D after that, met up with Xi Min. gosh, she havent had dinner. so i had to accompany her. She wanted to have Swensens. Went there to have sundae :) fun!! ate till 10++. went arcade before going home :)

What a day... :)


Thursday, June 24, 2010

Malaysia :)

went Malaysia today. ha, was busy thanking those who wished me birthday at midnight. i cant believed i cut my hair SHORT. not even shoulder length :( sort of regret now... haha, waiting for 23 48 now. Offically my birthday :D my 14th Year on Earth :D

i know you're upset. i want to comfort you, but i scared you'll be even angry if i did that.....

My Birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XI JIA

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Yum!! Just had a udon dinner. tempt for another one :D

disappointment.

I tried to. but disappointment is always the result... sigh. well, i understand already. ill stop bothering about you. i wont try to patch things up like how it used to be... i wont.
i will stop everything. im sorry if i irritated you. sorry...

blur me.

Happy Birthday Xi Ya!!

yay!! tmr will be my 14th year on Earth!! AWESOME :D
went for lunch with Ya, Zheng and Mum. When mum and zheng went home first, Ya suddenly say "ehh, Siti leh."
At first, i thought she was joking with me. cause she's always tricking me. mean~
well, but this time she wasnt. Siti was opposite the road. Called her :D aww, miss her :( talk for a while before leaving. walked past 7-11. mymymy, why am i so blur?? i didnt realise that Ya stopped and Siti was walking behind me. until Ya told me. aiya :(

finally, did my 1st holiday homework. The Miracle Worker. ha, feeling great :D
tmr morning going Malaysia.
haha!! cant wait for tmr 11.48pm. that was the time i was out from mum's womb :D

love...

Letters start with ABC.
Numbers start with 123.
Music starts with Do-Re-Mi.
And Love starts with You and Me

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

updates...

Many things are happening...

saturday, went for dont know who's baby 1 year old party. woohoo, got many cute cute balloons :D
sunday, went to eat to celebrate Mum's bday and Father's Day.

Monday, MUM'S BIRTHDAY!! went movie gathering with Kai Li, Ernest, Nazura, Wei Sheng, Dvonne, Gim Long and Gary at vivo. met up with gary at Dhoby ghaut. felt bad, cause we were late. OMG, im watching The Karate Kid for the 3rd time!!! this was the first movie i repeat watching. Went around shopping and had lots of fun at ToyRUs :) gary sent me home. but i told him at Tampines MRT can liao. then planned to get cake for mum. decided on cupcakes. bought some pan fried bun and oreo crush from EACH-A-CUP :D

today, went simei with zheng, ya and mum. bought a bag as bday gift :) went to eighteen chefs for dinner. yum!! miss their baked rice with creamy mango :) im so gonna have my first date dinner there :)

Friday, June 18, 2010

Romeo and Juliet

These violent delights have violent does and in their triumph die, like fire and powder, which, as they kiss, consume.
-Romeo and Ju
liet, Act ii, Scence vi

.

Secret...

I had a secret that wasn't mine to tell.
Yet a secret i felt bound to protect.
A secret, that suddenly, he seemed to know all about.

Cousins Outing Day!!

woke up at 9.30am. COUSINS OUTING DAY :D meeting shermin jiejie, bev, kym, nat and marc at AMK Hub. went to but tickets for The Karate Kid. yeah, that was my 2nd time watching it. sat with kym and nat. movie starting at 12.15am. So went arcade first. went to take neo prints :) it's been a long time ever since i took neo prints :) it's rather fun to take neo prints with your cousins :) went to play games after that. i sponsor everything sia xD

The threatre was freakingly cold!! was shivering~ brought jacket but kym was cold, so i gave her mine :) the show was really nice. but my heart almost pop out when Cheng kicked Dre's injured leg many times. Dre was like crying and shouting in pain. felt sad at that point. was quite touched though :)

had lunch at Mac. sad, no mc value lunch cause the show end at 3+pm. cool, now mc is having some 3 for $5 tea time promo. cool :) nothing to do le. so brought bev, kym and nat home. sa, ashaley was sleeping :(

we wanted to go TM de, but end up taking wrong bus. so went Parkway instead. went shopping. had dinner at Mos Burger. that was the fun part. TRUE TALK. we played scissors, paper, stone. who lose, have to answer a question from us HONESTLY. it's like a bonding session between me, Min, Ya and Zheng. yeah, i bet many people thought we were insane xD

was laughing really hard like there's no end when Min and Zheng accidentally 'kissed'. ha, was really enjoying every moments :)

was very happy to recieve his sms :) miss the times when we would sms 24h...

Thursday, June 17, 2010

ATC 2010

Back from ATC!!! boomz, fun interesting camp :) met Nadhirah, Pris and Elyana opp school at 6am, when we are suppose to be in school by 7 -.-"

i woke up only at 5.45am. i thought i was going to be late!! Chiong all the way!! sigh, went to school and only Elyana was there. Sat there and started to chat with Elyana... 6.20am, pris and nadhirah still not here. called pris. soon, pris came. At 6.50am, Nadhirah has not come yet. So we sent her a msg before going into school. A cat was meowing... but it sounded like a baby crying...

Fall in. Got punished by Sir Zaki. Had to do push-ups early in the morning -.- blahblahblah...

went Changi Jetty. The other schools were there already. Reached Pulau Ubin, it was drizzling. Had to carry my bag. as in really carry. used the handles as the sides. it was freakingly heavy!! got blue black on shoulders :(

didnt have many of the activities due to the rain :( eg the low elements activities :( kayaking was fun!! memories of Star 1 :) but it last less then an hour :( didnt bathe. just rinse. PT was gross. could feel the water when we were doing push up and crunches. but in this 3 days 2 nights, i learnt new things, made new friends... ENJOYED :D looking forward to STC!!

hate the mosquito bites :( ITCHY!!

Monday, June 14, 2010

outing with angel :)

HAPPY :D went to watch The Karate Kid at Plaza Sing with angel :) i feel really happy today!! ever since i knew him, life seems to change alot. okay, other then the habit of keeping too quiet.
The show was AMAZING!! you know. i guess i would be watching The Karate Kid 2 more times xD
off to ATC!! bless me :D

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Changes...

looking back... life changed. a lot.

13 years 355 days had passed. Every year different things happen.
As i was talking to my great grandmother yesterday, i felt that life... isnt going to be as smoothly as you hope it will. As you grow older, illness slowly gets in, loved ones will start leaving you. She looked really weak.
She reminds me of my late grandfather, whom really dotes me alot. I really miss him... REALLY.
I'll never forget how he looks like, how much he dotes us. He's really a wonderful grandfather whom never fail to make us laugh whenever we visit them at Ang Mo Kio. Somehow, it's been 4 years since he left us. I'll never forget how sad ahma, mummy, uncles, aunties, cousins were at his funeral... Teary eyes, sad face... That's all i see from their faces.
10 years with him. 10 years of memories with him. 10 years. 10 years only. This is not enough. Why must the people that i really love leave me?? one by one... sigh, tired of all these...

Happy Birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH SHAUN KORKOR!!!

14.06.2010

Friday, June 11, 2010

Updates!!

okay, i shall update on this week's activities. sorry, had been rather busy this week yeah.

On thursday, we had a gathering with the Malaysia OEV 2010 friends at East Coast Park. Wore my elmo shirt and FBT and slippers. Met up with Shirin at Tampines MRT, guardian. Was told to meet Nazura, Wei Sheng and Andres at Paya Lebar MRT. On the MRT, i was thinking what will happen later, will it be awkward. The feeling wasnt really pleasant.

Reached Paya Lebar MRT, and met with Nazura, Wei Sheng and Andres. Cool! Wei Sheng stay at woodlands. Yet, he came over to Tampines, Pasir Ris then Paya Lebar. All for Nazura. Love power...

Nazura told us that Dvonne, Sher Min, Yu Ning, Wan Rong and Zhe Ming will be meeting us downstairs. Well, it was rather messy... so we wasted much time there. Went down by the wrong side of escalators. So we landed at the wrong place. Like life...
It was drizzling. How cooling.

Was waiting for the bus to Parkway Parade when Dvonne received a call from Thanesh. She told us to wait for her. Nazura and Wei Sheng really look like they are together. So sweet together. How caring.

From PP, we walked to ECP. On the way, i slipped and almost fall thrice :c walked by a underpass and met a group of CIs. Among the CIs, M'dm Michelle and Sir Xin Yi were there. Chat for a while before continuing the journey.
Before leaving, Sir Xin Yi said,"Wah Xi Jia, very free huh." LOL xD

Dvonne was the tour guide, like Uncle Eddie and Uncle Ramly, leading us. was walking with Thanesh and Dvonne when Wei Sheng suddenly shouted, "Wait larh!" we stopped and he managed to catch up with us.
Wei Sheng: ehh, chicken cannot fly. can run only. Dont walk so fast larh.
yeah, that was his nickname, because of his hair. I find him damn cool!! He is filled with different type of blood. He looks like malay yet he is a chinese. His grandparents and his parents are mixed blood. And he can speak in Malay or Chinese. COOL :D

Stop @ Mac for lunch. Called the other group to meet us there. Bought frappe Mocha Chips
ha, was dying for coffee!! Yu Ning, Sher Min and Wan Rong have unique ways of eating a Mc Spicy Burger. It was rather... cool C:
Around 10 min later, the other group came with Sir Steven. DRENCHED. They went to get burgers and everybody were busy eating xD Suddenly 2 groups of ramdom people came in and told us to help them by singing Merry Christmas. well, the girls helped :) but we looked rather retarded -.-

While waiting for the boys to finish eating, me and Yu Ning started to play by stacking up the burger boxes and french fries boxes. In total, we managed to stack up 2 fillet-o-fish boxes, 4 Mc Spicy boxes, 1 mega Mc Spicy box and 6 french fries boxes. The aunty was like 'scolding' us. spoil fun :( The boys were trying to spit ice to make the 'tower' fall. So mean!! While having fun, Dvonne and Kai Li were busy filling the water bombs. I went to help them :D

Sir Steven want to play bowling so all the boys all went with him. No fun lorh. All the girls went cycling :D stop at bedok jetty and took jump shots :D

everything were okay. until wan rong fell at a sharp turn. we practiced team work and everybody offered to walk with her. but she insist she's okay. So we continued the journey back. Tio stopped by the boys. They also went to rent bicycle for 3h!! By that time, Steven went to work liao. stop at the beach and everybody start having water bomb fight!! i first one to tio wet by Shirin. Thanks girl xD got really wet. Crap, 4++pm liao. All the girls chiong to return the bike. But i got attacked by LEE JUN HAO. now, i got WET and SANDY. tio my ear sia. gross xD

On the way, Shirin fell. After returning the bike, me, Wan Rong and Shirin went to wash away the sand. came out from the toilet, checked my phone. CRAP!! 4 missed calls from Gary. call him. he reached ECP liao.

ha, walked a distance with Wan Rong, Shirin and Nazura. ha, got a bottle from Shirin and i managed to wet most of the boys! SHIOK :D saw Gary. Went to the beach and the battle between girls and boys started c: wah, thanks to Jun Hao, i finally knew how salty the sea was. He pushed me while i was filling up my water 'balloon'. Suddenly got pulled into the sea by Gary. It was damn deep. scary. and salty :P
After we used up all the water 'balloons', we(me, shirin, kai li, dvonne, wan rong, ernest, gary, zhe ming and jun hao.) sat in the sea and started playing concentration.

It was very relaxing, when the current sway you back and forth. other then your shirt keep floating up -.- At that point of time, all
troubles were washed away. Shiok!!
6++pm, everybody got up and went to wash up for dinner. By that time, a number of them left liao. LOL, almost everybody forget to bring undergarments -.-" Shirin didnt bring any extra clothes at all. Decided to go Tampines Mall to eat. and to look for sir steven :) On the way kena disturbed by Gary and Jun hao. somehow, the topic, relationship came. yeah, quite fun to talk about :)

wanted to eat Long John's Silver de, but too crowded and we got 13 of us - Dvonne, Kai Li, Shirin, Wan Rong, Yu Ning, Ernest, Gim Long, Zhe Wei, Jun Hao, Jiang Sheng, Zhe Ming, Gary and me.

went to famous amos to look for sir steven. stupid LEE JUN HAO, go tell steven that me and gary together. We're not!! ha, sir steven keep disturbing Gary by saying saying,"iam Jun hao" - his NP nametag.

went CS, food culture instead. Gary treated me to dinner. How nice :) yes and they started to ask are we together. well, we are not. Jun Hao kept giving me the 'i know what's going on' look. Shirin left soon after she ate dinner. After eating, Wan Rong started to play with the leftover food. A soup added with chilli, Ebi Fry, Saba fish, vegetable and all weird things. Gross~

somehow, the relationship topic came back -.-
they say what Nazura with Wei Sheng, Ernest with Kai Li, Kim Long with Jia Hui, me with Andres. then Wan Rong say,"NO!!! I've been observing Xi Jia and Gary since just now. They really look like couple. So Xi Jia's one in triangle love. Xi Jia, Gary and Andres."
I was like "NO!!!" and Gary was like "No larh. Xi Jia is with Andres." so i tackle him :D muahaha!!

Suddenly Ernest say,"Ehh, Andres is in Tampines Mall leh!!" My reaction was "CRAP!" Gary gave me a "wah cey' look. -.-"

Suddenly he took my hairband from my head, wore it and say,"Chio mah??" Kai Li was trying to snap a photo of him. damn cute :D Left food culture. went shopping till 9.15pm. Most of them have to go home le. Gary and Gim Long wanted to send me home de. But dont feel like going home so early. ha, went shopping with them at T1. Gary went to TopMan. Inside the shop, there were mainly couples. the feeling was rather weird -.- went CS after that. suddenly Gim Long went missing. He was hiding behind a pole -.-"

Gim Long: I thought you all wouldnt realise that i was missing.
LOL!! went CS fairprice. Gim Long was like emoing behind. Suddenly Gary whispered,"eh, we play catching with him??"
and we started running here and there. but kim long managed to find us.
Gim Long: eh, i stalk people before hor. dont play with me.
Gary: orhor... Xi Jia, later you be careful hor.

poor Gary, got tortured by Gim Long :D
@ around 10pm, we went to TM to look for sir Steven.
Steven: eh, why only left you 3 arh??
GL: the others went home le. We dont feel like going home so early.
Steven: eh, you all arh. havent 21 leh.
then he glanced at me and Gary.
"You two stand so close for what?? still say not together."
Me: dont have nah.
Steven: i dont believe. really.

Gim Long started talking. to himself. blahblahblah... xx
Steven: seriously... if you two together arh, better tell me hor. otherwise if i find out hor, ill make sure everybody know. I'll tell your m'dm dory. or M'dm Eliza first. Then your HO. your HOsss.... you know arh, sir zaki :) then i will call Mr Freddie Tan. I will make sure even the commendant know arh.
Me: we're not together nah.
Gary: Yeah lorh. Later Andres angry leh.
Me: ehh, no lorh!!
*Tackle him*

Steven: you two really look like you all are together.
Steven continues to work while we look at him :D
suddenly he looked up and said,"you see, stand so close.still say nothing on."
Me: really nothing larh.
Gary: yeah lorh. Andres de leh.
Steven: i dont knowlorh. but i warn you le arh. If i found out that you're going out with any of these malaysia people arh, you will die de. see, i care for my area cadet.

wah, time passes very fast leh. 10.30, sir steven can go home liao.
On the way to MRT, i was standing beside Gary. At that time, alot people going home le. so everybody pushing here and there. then we accidentally bump into one another. suey suey, steven turn and saw that -.-
Steven: you see! stand so close!!

then he stand between us. LOL, while crossing the road Gary gave alot of funny excuses. stop at the platform and started talking again. Steven's warnings again -.-
Steven: you go home and think about what i say hor. then you sms me or lee jun hao. ask him to tell me. or ATC also can. iam Jun Hao, you want send her home can. But send her to her house downstairs. not her house upstairs de.........(NC 16)
"SIR!!!"

Gary: sir, you taupok me still pain sia. what more plus andres leh.
Steven: you still want or not?? come come, public also can :)
Gary: No thanks. Xi Jia taupok then can larh.
Steven: arh... still say nothing.
LOL!!
@10.45pm.
Steven went home. Gary and Gim Long wanted to send me home. but last train at 11pm. so i told them to go home. i'll go home myself.


Really enjoyed myself. All the fun and memories... It been some time since ive so much fun. A new start, a new mind, a new thinking...


THANK YOU GARY, GIM LONG, DVONNE, KAI LI, SHIRIN, THANESH, NAZURA, YU NING, WAN RONG, SHER MIN, JIA HUI, WEI SHENG, ANDRES, ERNEST, CEDRIC, LEE JUN HAO, ZHE WEI, ZHE MING, JIANG SHENG, SIR STEVEN AND THE OTHERS WHO WENT. you guys made this gathering a successful and fun one. Malaysia OEV 2010 brought us together. Therefore, we shall keep NPCC alive together :D

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

True Words...

my 2nd letter to PRISCILLA and SITI NADHIRAH.

was really bored, so plan to write another love letter specially for you guys :D


I really want to THANK you, Priscilla Tay Jie Yi and Siti Nadhirah. for everything...

despite those mini argues, we're still back as the 3 musketeers :)

With you girls, i never felt bored. I always hope that we can spend one whole day shopping without budget. That will really be awesome :D you know, we can disturb one another, tempt one another (sshhhhh....), go on a eat-as-much-as-you-can buffet. That will really be my day :D


Through you girls, I've learnt many things. You girls make me dont feel like going home everyday. Those endless talks, those bitchy gossips. Everything that involve the 3 of us are always fun. Yeah, even though we're in different class this year, i believe the fun and craziness won't end. Indeed, it will increase and we'll get tons of laughing gas everytime we're together.


yes, we're sort of crazy. we somehow can 'talk' using your brain. you know, just by staring and giving weird looks, we know what we're going to say. I really LOVE you girls!! our friendship will never stop. It will continue, with the 3 of us together. I LOVE YOU!!


The true friendship...

This was my first letter to PRISCILLA and SITI NADHIRAH.

The days which we would go Mac and buy ice cream and start staring at the
television. Its rather weird to see 3 girls eating ice cream, sitting at a seven seater, watching soccer. i would never forget how we would react to each move a soccer player makes.


The days which we would sit at Siti's void deck to talk, study, do project. The days which we would meet up to complete our 'tree', acting like policewomen... trying to solve a 'case' xD


The days which we would go siti's house to plan class gathering. Played with your wonderful sister, and miscalled siti 'kaka'. played fire sparks in the afternoon outside of her house. HOW UNIQUE xD the burbles popping...


The day which we tore a $2 note by accident. haha, i still caNT believe that we actually suggested throwing it away!! we managed to tape it back and the feeling when we handed the money to the uncle to pay for the drinks.


The days which we would go KFC and have long lunch and talks together. and laugh like there's nobody else there ...


The days which we walked home together and talk about our days. The need to go but dont want to go 'bye'...


The day which we had to bring a HUGE cardboard to school and got super embarrassed.


The days which we would stay back to do class decorations... and ended up laughing, joking, playing ...


The days which we would write letters to one another when teacher is teaching. Bursting into laughter when something stupid happen.


The days which we would participate everything as triplets ... thinking out of the box xD


The days which we would quarrel and apologized to one another in a day...


The days which we would gossip about .......


The days which we would snap pictures of one another and laughed about it ...


CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT 1 FRUITFUL YEAR HAS PASSED??

im really happy to have such BEST FRIENDS like you guys :D
BBBFF!!

all the best for MYE!! :D

Upset.

i saw what i wouldn't want to see. why?? why must i spot that! everything crush down at that point... you broke my hope, you broke my heart. Look like i really have to accept the fact that I'm no longer the one. broken heart when i saw you with her. sweet pair... this isn't what i want this to be. everything is going against the me. i really want to continue, but i guess I'm not allowed to...

It's time for me to let go right?? He's right. There are much better guys around. I shouldn't be sad. I shall be brave and move on. Yes, i still have my guardian angel watching over me, guiding, caring for me... i should not make him sad. 1 is enough.

I'm afraid I'll bre
ak into tears when i see you. Yes, i shouldn't cry about this. For the sake of them... I really don't want to cry! But it comes out from my eyes naturally. Forcing all tears back into my eyes. I cannot be weak, I must be strong to overcome this. But how long will this take?? 1 day? 1 week? 1 month? 1 year? sigh.

I shouldn't let this happen in the first place. Why am I feeling so hurt now?? I really don't want to think about this anymore. This is not fair. -------- and ---- are trying to cheer me up after I'm heart-broken by you. You enjoy my happy moments while they get the sad moments. I shouldn't do this to them. They deserve more then you. ARGH!! I'm going insane!! WHEN WILL THIS STOP!!

Hiking!!

went back school today for NP. went hiking :) met up with priscilla and siti opp school at 7.15am. went to school and started talking. you know, we really blabber about everything. Just love the times spent with them

got back our unit and batch tee shirt :D yay, love them!!! awesome white and blue
aww, today they celebrated all april, may and june babies birthday. ha, me, Ya and Jerlyn were the only females :D but it's rather weird to eat cake at 9am. provided it was ultra creamy!! all birthday babies must eat a slice. went up the bus and off we go!!

eek, mosquitoes everywhere!! sigh, maybe they love me too much ba :) well, it rained. aww, the raindrops...
love the feeling of raindrops dripping onto me

the museum was AWESOME!! it was really cool :D
as the rain got heavier, i got wetter. yes it was cold, but i love it.
was told to change into my batch tee cause i was dripping wet. on the way back school, it was freakingly cold!! was shivering. that's when i need warmth ... went back school, had to stay back for briefing on ATC. after briefing, went KFC :D hungry~ the sec 3s came soon after us. i love the time with the girls. they make me smile and laugh. really. THANK YOU!!
went TM with pris, Ya and Elyana after that. saw one of the sir and a KFC worker. bought friendship band :)

was really sad at a point of time... but thanks to ----, whom brighten my day up and woke me up from this. THANK YOU!!

Monday, June 7, 2010

Yunwei's Birthday Outing!!

yea, went out with yunwei yesterday to celebrate her birthday :D

went suntec for lunch first. walked around and around. ha, this is US xD
after that went Escape Theme Park. ha, as per normal... Rollar Coast is our first ride :D :D sat at the last seats. went viking next. heehee, find myself very brave :) played viking thrice. 1st round at the 3rd last row. 2nd round at the 3rd last row. 3rd round at the 2nd last row. but felt like vomiting after that o.O

went
dinner with her and her parents. YUM YUM :D went home at 9plus. tired but not sleepy... 1am still watching tv with YA.
and THANK YOU ---- for accompanying me all the way to 1am and listening to my blabberings :D THANK YOU!!

went shopping with Min and HT. wanted to go bugis de... but end up going to White Sands. had sushi buffet. gosh, i think ill never take sushi for months!! was really bloated -.-
ha, cant wait for hiking tmr :D:D

Happy Birthday!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YUNWEI !!
06.06.2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GWEN!!
07.06.2010


Friday, June 4, 2010

Malaysia OEV 2010

im BACK from Malaysia!! boomz, i thought i wouldnt enjoy this trip as i was the only one from my school going for this and i didnt know anybody there. But now, i didnt regret going at all. i made many friends and learnt many things.

Day 1
i wake up at 6am an
d got ready to set off to HTA which is like far far away from Tampines, Old Chua Chu Kang Road. I had to reach HTA at 7.30am. Set off from house at only 6.40am. I thought i was going to be late!! I really love my dad! Even though he's work place is not near HTA, he still offered to drive me there. He might be late for work, he can choose not to bring me there. But he didnt. I LOVE YOU DAD!! Reach HTA at 7.30am. Just nice :D

The room was filled with people whom i dont know at all!! i felt like going home...
on the bus, we had to sit with our room
mate, which is our buddy too. ha, my first friend, Shirin. i thought she's a shy malay girl... but a mood swing-er...
we reach malaysia, Mala
cca. went to the Malacca HQ. The police performed a dance for us. it was rather... funny. but quite unique :)
went city tour. and started making more friends :D
departed for KL...
Dinner was rather bonding. The boys were cracking jokes and our table was the noisiest!

arh, my hotel room is the corner room. hate corner rooms!! but it was the best room!! my reaction when i step into the room was .... i shouted.
i was scared by the sounds made when i slot the card into the energy saver thing. I opened the wardrobe and... shouted again
-.- switched on the television... and shouted again. ha, Shirin was laughing like mad!!

Day 2
had breakfast at the hotel. then went off to Putrajaya HQ.
ermm, i cant write too much about the trip cause we're told not to. so,SORRY! saw many horses!! super cute!! once again, dinner was FUNNY!!

Day 3

cant say much... went dog visit. i love them!! :D

Day 4
cant say much about day time. will skip to night... had debrief at Level 1.
was sitting at the back with Gary. Our back facing the door. Suddenly M'dm Michelle started laughing. so we turned an
d saw one of the door opening. Everybody started making sounds and moved neared towards the front.
Gary went to close the door. the lifts were making funny sounds. Guess what?? the door opened again!! i damn scared sia!! Gary went and close the door again.
this time he but the lockpad around the handles. the CIs started talking again. suddenly, we heard footsteps fro
m the back and we turned. Everybody kena chuatio. and started laughing!

Gary went up and close the door again. M'dm was laughing while talking. we kept turning back to check. The door was trying to open.
suddenly, 'Piak!' the door opened. I was freakingly scared. Sir told us to ignore it so that they can end the briefing earlier.

I turned and kena chuatio by Sir Freddie. Everybody laughed. It was rather fun :D
went back to our room.

Lynna and Esther came to our room. G
ary called and told me some things, which im not going to say.
It's like after Gary called, Andres will call. After Andres, Gary will call. The boys told us to go to level 6 to meet them. but we realised that our card cant go to level 6 and the boys cant come up to level 14.
so we decided to meet at level 1. kena sacred by the boys. we were rather sacred cause we were not allowed to go opposite sex rooms. Whoa, the boys having party sia. Filled with boys in a small room.

It was rather scary and we were afraid that Sirs may check on them any moment. so we decided to call instead. ran back to our room.
we bathed and i went to esthe
r's room while shirin went to Naz room. me, esther and Lynna had Girls Talk. but got disturbed by the boys. but they are super nice. They called and told us that the sirs and mdm are doing room check soon.
So we managed to pass the message around and nobody was caught :D teamwork :D

ha, Sir Seng, Sir Freddie and Mdm Michelle came to check. ha, mdm went in and check everywhere. see we got hide anyone or not. after they left, Shirin went to sleep.

I called Lynna and wanted to ask her what time should i go over. but i heard sir seng's voice at the background. so
i changed the topic. I asked her is she going to sleep soon. ha, sir told us to sleep now. but, who cares :D i sat on my bed and watched television. suddenly, the phone rang. which gave me a scare. it was Gary. ha, nice time to call. keep me awake so that i can go over to Lynna's room. talked and talked and talked... at around 1plus am i went over to Lynna's room. Gary called and invited us to the boys party. yea... fell asleep at their room. went back to my room at 4am.

Day 5

last day le :( stupid rumors... bad! not going to say. went chocolate factory before going back singapore. the last lunch was memorable... had lots of laughter together ... mywords, Gary reminds me of him...... really.
Back home at 8pm.

some of the photos :D