Upset.

i saw what i wouldn't want to see. why?? why must i spot that! everything crush down at that point... you broke my hope, you broke my heart. Look like i really have to accept the fact that I'm no longer the one. broken heart when i saw you with her. sweet pair... this isn't what i want this to be. everything is going against the me. i really want to continue, but i guess I'm not allowed to...

It's time for me to let go right?? He's right. There are much better guys around. I shouldn't be sad. I shall be brave and move on. Yes, i still have my guardian angel watching over me, guiding, caring for me... i should not make him sad. 1 is enough.

I'm afraid I'll break into tears when i see you. Yes, i shouldn't cry about this. For the sake of them... I really don't want to cry! But it comes out from my eyes naturally. Forcing all tears back into my eyes. I cannot be weak, I must be strong to overcome this. But how long will this take?? 1 day? 1 week? 1 month? 1 year? sigh.

I shouldn't let this happen in the first place. Why am I feeling so hurt now?? I really don't want to think about this anymore. This is not fair. -------- and ---- are trying to cheer me up after I'm heart-broken by you. You enjoy my happy moments while they get the sad moments. I shouldn't do this to them. They deserve more then you. ARGH!! I'm going insane!! WHEN WILL THIS STOP!!